Re o bama
Re i koba
Naong tsa go Jesu

Lo lorato
Le legolo
Naong tsa go Jesu

O boitshepo, boitshepo
O boitshepo, boitshepo
O boitshepo, boitshepo
O kwana



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I'm trying really hard.

I went in on Retreat with the college group I attend on Wednesday nights (CBF). We went up to Winston Salem to a church called Marshall Baptist Church. I had a great time being able to fellowship with other believers my age and learn about God. The group went to the park to play Frisbee golf and a couple of us played a game of volleyball. It was nice to be able to get away from the stress, relax, and have fun.

Hey Rich if you read this: I MISS YOU!!!! I <3 ya bro!

It's interesting how your outlook on things differ when you haven't gotten much sleep. Tired and stressed I feel as if I am going to break out into an uncontrollable scream. Who knows? It might help.



Isaiah 41:10-
Fear thou not; for I with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

I am not as stressed as I was earlier. Richard and Samantha were able to stay with me here at the hospital so that helped my stress levels to go some....

I am having an allergic reaction to something and have a few hives. lol... go me! ;)

Wow, It's almost 3 and I am still going.

Well, I am going to go check on Maw Maw...

Night! :-/

WoW! It has been awhile since my stress levels have been so high. I wish I could trade places with her. The lonely nights spent in the hospital with her alone are the hardest.



I am battling jealousy and selfishness all at once. Quite frankly, I feel as if I am losing the battles I am in.

The tempting lifestyle from my past is knocking at my door. I am not use to feeling my feelings. I am use to making myself "numb" to the fact that I hurt. Sometimes I just want to crawl back into my "shell" and stay there. I want to run and hide.

What good does any of that do??

None. None, whatsoever.

Sometimes, I feel as if I can't carry the burden given to me. That's when I have to stop and evaluate my prayer life and daily walk with my Heavenly Father. I can not carry the burden alone, ONLY through His Strength, by asking Him to help me, and being willing to let Him help me.




It's SO hard not to run millions of miles in the other directions. God will never leave us or forsake us. :)

3 April 2008

Life has been rough the last month or so. I am have not been able to sleep but nothing really new there. I mss my brother and wish he was here so I could hang out with him I am only working PT at Mc Donald's. I am trying to put God first and not let Satan get control again. Every day is a struggle for me. God has been right beside me evey step of the way. :) I am enjoying learning how to fully depend on God and not doing everything all on my own. I am going to see if I can finish writing at least one of the two poems I started writing last night. ;)