Last night in Boston....

I am sitting here watching HOUSE M.D. with Samantha while Rich is taking a nap before he goes to work. I have enjoyed being here this week. I am home sick but am not quite ready to leave in the morning. I will get to see my brother again in less than a month when him and his wife come home for Christmas. :) It has been a blast being here. It will be good to get home and see my family, boyfriend, and friends. I can't wait for church on Sunday and for Bible study on Wednesday. :)

I have had a lot on my plate here lately. God has been showing me different areas I need to and things I need to do differently. I am learning to take my running shoes off and stand quietly and listen to every word He has to tell me. It is hard for me, but He is helping me through everything.

I was at church this morning and it was the message I needed to hear. I realized that I needed to humble myself before my Lord and Saviour and ask He for help. Sometimes, I get so wrapped up in helping others that I forget about myself. If I don't stop to help myself I am not going to be able to help others. I am going to hit that breaking point and just quit and that's not what I want.

I went back to church tonight and listened to the African Children's Choir. They are an amazing group of children doing the Lord's work through their singing. They were a blessing to me. I pray that has they get ready to head back home in a week that they have a safe trip. If anyone is interested in this group you can go to their website: http://africanchildrenschoir.com and learn more about them.

Well, this is the last week of summer camp. I have mixed emotions. I will be glad for the break at first, but am going to miss all my kids that are not going to be at after school care. I have enjoyed working with all my kids in the Red Group and the Green Group. :)

Life is still hectic at times, but not as much as it was last time I posted. Everyday I am amazed by God's grace and complete forgiveness. Time and time again, I fail my Savior and He still loves and forgives me. : )

I am still involved with CBF and enjoying hearing what God has laid on Mr. Abernethy's heart each week. I enjoying helping out and being used by God. I am still getting use to it, but am liking it a lot. It is cool to look back and see how far I have come in the past year and even 6 months. God is good. All the time God is good.

I have been blessed with a great boyfriend. We have been dating for 6 months now. : )

Life is hectic... but oh well. I am liking it.

Most people that feel that God is calling them to the mission field are scared God is going to send them to Africa and hear I sit scared that He will not send me.

Back to the start my heart is heavy
Feels like it’s time to dream again
I see the clouds, and yes I’m ready
To dance upon this barren land
Hope in my hands

Do not shut, do not shut,
Do not shut the heavens
But open up, open up,
Open up our hearts

Give me strength to cross the water
Keep my heart upon Your altar
Give me strength to cross this water
Keep my feet don’t let me falter

(the rest of the lyrics on my lyrics blog)

The partial lyrics that are posted above explain kinda how I feel and what I'm asking God. I have been at this one point in my life for about 6 months now and have been "running" from it because I was scared of what God might tell me. I have a deep running passion for the people in Africa and thought and felt for many years that God was calling me to go and serve Him there. Over the last 6 months, God has been laying other ways that I can serve Him in right now. Sadly, Africa is not on the top of that list. :'( I am willing to serve God where every He sends me, but it's hard to realize that your dream, want, and desire is not what He is calling you to do, but is just simply your dream, want, and desire. I sit here and just simply ask God to Keep my feet and don’t let me falter. I only want to serve where God would have me serve (as much as it scares me).


This song is my prayer:

Lord, it’s so amazing to me that Your love would break sins shackles and set a captive free And why in all of Heaven would You reach down Your hand to mend a broken vessel or to use a sin stained man. May my feet walk only the path You’ve walked before me May my hands share the weight of another in need May my voice resound with honor the praises of Your glory May Your life be the reflection that others see in me So Lord the gifts You’ve given to me, I now commit to You and lay them at Your feet Please take them and anoint them with boldness and with grace, so those You place before me will desire to seek You’re face

Re o bama
Re i koba
Naong tsa go Jesu

Lo lorato
Le legolo
Naong tsa go Jesu

O boitshepo, boitshepo
O boitshepo, boitshepo
O boitshepo, boitshepo
O kwana



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I'm trying really hard.

I went in on Retreat with the college group I attend on Wednesday nights (CBF). We went up to Winston Salem to a church called Marshall Baptist Church. I had a great time being able to fellowship with other believers my age and learn about God. The group went to the park to play Frisbee golf and a couple of us played a game of volleyball. It was nice to be able to get away from the stress, relax, and have fun.

Hey Rich if you read this: I MISS YOU!!!! I <3 ya bro!